Probably the crappiest day this year. I started to type 'of my career'; that's not so true. But it certainly is up there. So Madison is rated Excellent with Distinction, but the special ed subgroup at the middle school did not meet the state's benchmark. Today was the staff meeting where the guy from the state came to tell us what we have to do as a staff. The whole meeting felt like a punch in the gut. It's so frustrating to work so hard...and fail. And to have your principal say those exact words about you (really aimed at the sped/math staff) at a staff meeting. Today was a first. I couldn't stop the tears. Couldn't talk about it most of the day. I was really the first time that I really had the thought, "I don't want to teach any more." That's a frightening place for me. I don't just love my job. I am a teacher.
Today I have to be thankful for my students. I just went in my room, closed the door and taught. They do what I ask them to do. Try, for the most part. And are fun to be around. For reminding me why I do what I do, I am thankful for my students.
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